Dobrodosel september!!!
Kako komaj cakam, da bo konec tega poletja, te norisnice in neke cudne evforije! Komi cakam da se folk mal nakulera in pospravi domov, prezivi mal casa s samim sabo. komi cakam da se narava mal spocije.
no neki tega se je zame zacel zdj, s prvim septembtom. veselim se sprememb, veselim se novega obdobja.
Komaj cakam svojo zlato jesen, globoko cutenje same sebe in narave. Tesko opisem cesa se veselim pravzaprav, ampak ko pride jesen, v mojem telesu igra posebna glasba. nezna je in vesela, in narava plese ob tej glasbi. Toplo je, kljub dezju in hladnim jutrom. Toplo je. V scru je toplo.
veselim se tega, kar bo prineslo zivljenje. mir in ljubezen. romantiko. toplino. zlato glasbo, zlate barve.
Has been a long time since I last felt an excitement and joy in life.
I missed it so bad. I missed enjoying those little things, such as rain and music and nature and laugh....to stop and simply observe the going on around you, and appreciate it.
Nature is so poor now days, so sad and so dry. also theres so much of the garbage lying all around from night before drinking outside and not caring. its awful. beer cans, crisps bags, tobacco empty boxes, plastic cups.... so sad.
People dont care. No-one cares. They all got poisoned by summer-toxic! :(
Another reason why summer is not my fave season.
Summer always makes me feel so lonely.
I dont like summer because my lags are so white and my belly is fat and my arms are ugly and all this need to be shown if you wanna survive the heat. I hate summer because my body is not made to be shown up. Skin is shown, yuky my skin is yuk!
Just hotties outside with super short pants and brown legs and fat belly.......bitches!
im not one of them.
summer sux.
tho everytime I go overseas and its super hot, i dont complain at all. I go with the flow, feel good. odd.
anyways week was insane totally am so exhausted, emotionally and physically. this rainy weekend came up just for me :) so excited about catching up with my own self and my own thoughts, feelings, emotions, needs and wishes. cant wait!
yesterday after the therapy I felt really good. when head back home, it was raining and I opened the window and spread my hand out and caught some raindrops. was amazing. loved the huge storm. I walked int he rain with the smile on my face. glory!
There was a song playing on the radio and I heard it. I felt it. i grooved with it. it was just amazing, there were emotions in my body. last for few minutes but i enjoyed them tho.
I am so happy am feeling more alive now. I am happy I stand up or myself and I am not so afraid of being me. I am me and who cares! I have right to express myself, I have right to feel and dream. I have!
At work, there were few situations when i surprised myself totally. felt so good. really did.
This week, I was proud of myself. I got so many hugs this weeks from my kids, so many compliments from colleges and parnets that my mind indeed got loads of positive affirmations.
There was a boy who celebrated his birthday the other day and had party at home. He invited me for his party. :) I explained him the party is for kids not for teachers and he said: "no no, you just ask my mom when she comes in the afternoon.!" haha so cool, kids inviting me for their bdays. that the biggest reward any teacher can get. :) also there is a girl who is usually pretty arrogant and has awful attitude she made some mess with other girls and others came whine to me: "she doesnt let us play with her!" I told the girls that only her can choose who she will play with and it is her right to choose a playmate or not. than the tough girl said: "yah but am jealous!" some of them asked me what does that mean and I explained and then had a talk with the jealous girl. It was a big task as am bad with jealousy haha but i told her jealousy is an emotion we all have and it is very natural but at one point she has to understand that the jealousy is an alarm that she doesnt trust herself enough. bla bla bla i dont even remember the whole conversation but it was huge break trough for me....me talking about the jealousy haha I was fully aware at that point that i can change that girls life when make her feel understood .... and so next day, that very arrogant girl came hug me! :D
I felt so amazingly good!!!
I miss my boyfriend so much it hurts. seriously. has been almost 4 weeks since hes gone but still doesnt have internet at his house and it really hurts. when am super busy I kind of handle myself and followw trough, but when some time to think, I get totally frustrated, upset, angry and sad!!! I miss him and my heart hurts, literally! it is not fair that we get a chance to see eachothers face only twice a week. no no no!!!!!!!!!
Kako komaj cakam, da bo konec tega poletja, te norisnice in neke cudne evforije! Komi cakam da se folk mal nakulera in pospravi domov, prezivi mal casa s samim sabo. komi cakam da se narava mal spocije.
no neki tega se je zame zacel zdj, s prvim septembtom. veselim se sprememb, veselim se novega obdobja.
Komaj cakam svojo zlato jesen, globoko cutenje same sebe in narave. Tesko opisem cesa se veselim pravzaprav, ampak ko pride jesen, v mojem telesu igra posebna glasba. nezna je in vesela, in narava plese ob tej glasbi. Toplo je, kljub dezju in hladnim jutrom. Toplo je. V scru je toplo.
veselim se tega, kar bo prineslo zivljenje. mir in ljubezen. romantiko. toplino. zlato glasbo, zlate barve.
Has been a long time since I last felt an excitement and joy in life.
I missed it so bad. I missed enjoying those little things, such as rain and music and nature and laugh....to stop and simply observe the going on around you, and appreciate it.
Nature is so poor now days, so sad and so dry. also theres so much of the garbage lying all around from night before drinking outside and not caring. its awful. beer cans, crisps bags, tobacco empty boxes, plastic cups.... so sad.
People dont care. No-one cares. They all got poisoned by summer-toxic! :(
Another reason why summer is not my fave season.
Summer always makes me feel so lonely.
I dont like summer because my lags are so white and my belly is fat and my arms are ugly and all this need to be shown if you wanna survive the heat. I hate summer because my body is not made to be shown up. Skin is shown, yuky my skin is yuk!
Just hotties outside with super short pants and brown legs and fat belly.......bitches!
im not one of them.
summer sux.
tho everytime I go overseas and its super hot, i dont complain at all. I go with the flow, feel good. odd.
anyways week was insane totally am so exhausted, emotionally and physically. this rainy weekend came up just for me :) so excited about catching up with my own self and my own thoughts, feelings, emotions, needs and wishes. cant wait!
yesterday after the therapy I felt really good. when head back home, it was raining and I opened the window and spread my hand out and caught some raindrops. was amazing. loved the huge storm. I walked int he rain with the smile on my face. glory!
There was a song playing on the radio and I heard it. I felt it. i grooved with it. it was just amazing, there were emotions in my body. last for few minutes but i enjoyed them tho.
I am so happy am feeling more alive now. I am happy I stand up or myself and I am not so afraid of being me. I am me and who cares! I have right to express myself, I have right to feel and dream. I have!
At work, there were few situations when i surprised myself totally. felt so good. really did.
This week, I was proud of myself. I got so many hugs this weeks from my kids, so many compliments from colleges and parnets that my mind indeed got loads of positive affirmations.
There was a boy who celebrated his birthday the other day and had party at home. He invited me for his party. :) I explained him the party is for kids not for teachers and he said: "no no, you just ask my mom when she comes in the afternoon.!" haha so cool, kids inviting me for their bdays. that the biggest reward any teacher can get. :) also there is a girl who is usually pretty arrogant and has awful attitude she made some mess with other girls and others came whine to me: "she doesnt let us play with her!" I told the girls that only her can choose who she will play with and it is her right to choose a playmate or not. than the tough girl said: "yah but am jealous!" some of them asked me what does that mean and I explained and then had a talk with the jealous girl. It was a big task as am bad with jealousy haha but i told her jealousy is an emotion we all have and it is very natural but at one point she has to understand that the jealousy is an alarm that she doesnt trust herself enough. bla bla bla i dont even remember the whole conversation but it was huge break trough for me....me talking about the jealousy haha I was fully aware at that point that i can change that girls life when make her feel understood .... and so next day, that very arrogant girl came hug me! :D
I felt so amazingly good!!!
I miss my boyfriend so much it hurts. seriously. has been almost 4 weeks since hes gone but still doesnt have internet at his house and it really hurts. when am super busy I kind of handle myself and followw trough, but when some time to think, I get totally frustrated, upset, angry and sad!!! I miss him and my heart hurts, literally! it is not fair that we get a chance to see eachothers face only twice a week. no no no!!!!!!!!!
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